Those of you who feel suicidal. You aren’t alone. I know the feeling all to well. I hate seeing these kids who post videos talking about wanting to kill themselves. Some do it for attention some are doing it because that’s the only way they feel they can get help from someone. So please, if you see someone like that… try and talk to them. Online or in real life. You never know you can probably help a lot of people by talking to them and seeing what’s up. I’ve messaged a number of kids on here…it seems to help.
The other thing I wanted to mention is people with low self esteem with their body. I know that pretty well too.. but lately I’ve come to accept my body and who I am. I am fat… but I love it. Although I am working on trying to lose weight.. I am doing it to be healthy. I know plenty of guys who like me the way I am too ;). I know it’s hard but TRY to be accepting of yourself. If you don’t like your body… do something to change it. Always do it for yourself and NO ONE else.
Now…smoke a blunt, have a drink or for my edge friends drink water & have a good time.
Time to make this going to school stuff a reality.
So I’ve never been one to be that comfortable with my body/how I look. I love my personality & who I am… but lately my confidence has been high. Even with being the fat guy.. I like myself a lot more than I did a few months ago. I’ve got some things I want to change for myself. I am working on it. It feels good.
There’s a lot of bullshit going on in my life.. but this whole self confidence thing is making up for all the bs.
- Move away from Wisconsin.
- Meet the people I’ve been friends with online finally.
- Lose more weight (20lbs down since May. At least 60 more lbs to go.)
- Get more tattoos.
- Be happy.
Why do people lie? Even about the simplest things? I am not trying to say I never lie. I do. But when it comes to small things or just being upfront with another person. I’ve always just been truthful about bullshit. Get some balls & man up to shit. People want me to trust them..but give me every reason not to trust them.
This is why I don’t trust people.