Why do people lie? Even about the simplest things? I am not trying to say I never lie. I do. But when it comes to small things or just being upfront with another person. I’ve always just been truthful about bullshit. Get some balls & man up to shit. People want me to trust them..but give me every reason not to trust them. 

This is why I don’t trust people.

My best friend of 14 years is going to California for a month… We’ve not been apart for that amount of time in so long. It’s going to be weird. =/

I need more friends. 

Guy 1: Likes me a lot. I am really into him. But He is too busy to talk/hang out with me. (even when he’s got free time he just parties/does other shit.)

Guy 2: I am into this guy. He only talks/sees me when it’s convenient for him. Tells me he wants something with me… but makes no effort into pursuing anything.

Guy 3: I kinda like him. He’s also way too busy with 2 jobs & other personal obligations. We’ve hung out a few times. Although recently I found out he’s basically a whore.

Guy 4: I just met the dude. He gave me his number. Really handsome guy… but I just found out he’s in a relationship. -_-

Guy 5: Flirts with me.. I flirt back. He’s got a boyfriend…so I’ve been keeping away.

Guy 6: Has liked me for years but is a total indecisive slut. 


I’ve not slept with any of these guys.. haven’t even kissed. Just talking. I guess I need to branch out & find other potential bf material.. heh. 

My birthday was overall pretty decent. My moms bought me a new bed. Which is suppose to arrive today. I’ve been sleeping on a futon mattress. -_- Totally thankful for that. I went & got a tattoo. Next Tuesday I am getting another one. I went out to the bar… people were buying me drinks left & right. HOLY FUCK. My body is fucking hurting right now. I was chugging 151, gin & tonics, jager bomb’s… basically anything people got me.. I was drinking it. lol. I was definitely smashed. The night also ended pretty awesome with a nice cuddle sesh. \m/ Pretty cool 25th birthday. 

First birthday though I didn’t have a cake. Which is ok. 

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• D.C. (or somewhere on the east coast)
• Texas (one of the major cities probably Austin.)
• Florida (If I go to school..the city where the school is.)

Still debating shit.

There was this dude I knew from way back when. He was actually a friend of my brothers. But turns out dude is gay & really chill. We hung out (not anything sexual) just 2 friends hanging out. We drove around, walked around by the lake & talked. It was awesome just hanging out with someone and talking about whatever. We are probably hanging out tomorrow. Not sure. But at least I’ve got a new friend. lol.

Pretty cool night. 

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There is nothing holding me down in Wisconsin anymore. Aside from family.. but I’ve got to make some more drastic changes in my life. The one thing that has been on my mind constantly is moving away from here.

I want to move out of state. Away from the Midwest. I just don’t know how I would even begin to do anything like this. I’ve lived in Wisconsin pretty much my entire life. I’ve toured/traveled a lot around the US when I was in my band. I could choose anywhere I want to go… it’s a liberating feeling but it also sucks because I am not THAT close to other people anywhere else outside of Wisconsin.

I want to make this happen. Somehow.